WARNING: READING THIS WILL MAKE YOUR BRAIN COME OUT OF YOUR EARS.
Ah, So many things have happened since my last journal. xD
That's teen life for ya. Well, I've lived through my first rejection
And I lived through it well. XD; Hmm, I liked my guy friend T_T And well..he wasn't sure of his feelings but decided to go out with his crush.
But liking him, really really took a toll of my mental stability. XD; It was the first time I became illogical. It was also the first time I fell for someone after becoming friends with. (The other guys it was like a physical attraction and I became shy with them )
But I hated the fact I was becoming more and more shy. And I couldn't tell him straighforwardly of my feelings. (But he knew I liked him just because I acted different with him ) I was relieved but sad at the same time. All of this could've of gone better though. Because now if he were to do the same things that he did before his girlfriend, I wouldn't misinterpret them. So now, our friendship seems like it's going better.
But anyway, back to what happened. The 24th of April, I found out he was going to go out with her. My friend talked to him after school. I really appreciate the fact that she did that. Because of that, I could talk to him on msn. That was hard, but I told him i'd survive. And so far, I'm still alive and well. Wednesday morning, I was happy. The afternoon, meh. During the week, I was really going crazy. So I knew I had to do something to move on. Friday, I went see my friend, which is his girlfriend. And told her I wasn't mad at her and she gave me a hug and stuff. I still can't really be around seeing them kiss, yet. But then together, I can, I guess o-O;
But it was at that moment, that I decided to move on. Who knows what the future brings, but after talking to her on msn, I found out she really wasn't a bad person. She's interesting and I can talk to her about a lot of things.
She's a good person. And she constantly deals with people judging her because of how she dresses. It's funny because of you don't know her, she seems like someone who doesn't have a lot of problems. But she really does have some.
I wish my friend and his girlfriend well.
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On another note, I don't get how people could say : How could your friend do that to you? She has the right to like who she wants
He has the right to like her. Sure I felt my emotions were played a bit, but that was most likely me misinterpreting what he did.
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Update on my bubble. It's getting better. I'm opening up a bit more. More and more each day. The fact that I speak english is becoming a conversation starter XD; heh. I'm meeting new and interesting people. (It's about bloody time.. )
People who don't seem spoiled to death, who've actually lived through something.
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Life's changed so much within these last few months. If it wasn't for my guy friend, I'd still be in my bubble. It's all his fault. XD; I mean before him, I could barely talk to guys. Now, I'm no longer very shy with people. I still don't talk and integrate myself in a conversation the first time I meet people. But, I'll work on that
Atleast I'm anglophoned XD It makes people curious about where I'm from..
Starts a conversation..
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Let's see how different things will be in the next coming months.
Peaceful
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Thanks all 
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